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September 30, 2009

Worried? Here's what to do...

I didn't used to be like this. Really. I promise I wasn't. Sure things got to me on occasion, but nothing that I couldn't handle. Most things rolled off of my back.

Not anymore. I don't know if it's being married that did it. Or having a baby. Or maybe just facing up to the reality that I'm not a child anymore. I'm actually a grown up. A real one. One with responsibility and bills and 5 million things on a to-do list everyday.

Like it or not, I've turned into a WORRIER...and I don't like it.

For instance...
When the paycheck comes, I am always the one paying bills. I look at the check, I look at the bills. I worry. When Noah was running 102 degree fever last night, what was I doing? Worrying. When Josh is running late coming home from work [even if it's only by 30 minutes, and I haven't heard from him all day], what do I do? Worry. I even worry about STUPID stuff. When we go out to eat, I'm that person that's paranoid that when we go to pay our tab, the credit card is going to be declined. Or that the cash I pay with is counterfeit. LOL Even if there is money in the bank and the cash in my purse came out of an ATM.

I expect the worst. When there is more bill than money at the end of the day, I baracade myself upstairs with the garage closed and the windows shut...just in case they come to turn off the cable or something. When Noah runs fever, I freak out. I expect the worst possible lab results and try to come up with a plan...you know, just in case. If Josh is late, I'm pacing around the house in anticipation, just to be sure that he gets home ok.

Our society is full of negativity and worst case scenerios. Look at the news. They are constantly pumping us full of crap about the next World War, Biological Warefare, and Swine Flu. Hello. We say what a big deal THAT was. Have you heard of the Myan 2012 prophecy? I'm scared to see what kind of unbelievable mayhem will break out when that gets close. Definately worse than the whole Y2K freak out of 1999. Especially since they are making a MOVIE about it [Yea. Really. Staring John Cusak. Comes out sometime the end of the year or early 2011.]

So...what do I do? When I'm scared that we just aren't going to have the money, or that Noah may have something seriously wrong with him, or that maybe Josh is late for a bad reason? I pray. Why?

God tells us that worry is our way of saying to him, "Look, you may have created the sun and the moon and all that jazz, but this problem I have, yea. You can't handle it. So I think I'll just take control of it on my own. I'll seek you out when I really need something." Hmm. Sound familiar? Maybe you've never said that outloud, or wrote it in a prayer journal, or even so much as thought it in those exact words. But if you've worried, that's what you have done. Phillipians 4:6-7 says, "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." [NLT] GOD has this under control. No matter what this may be.

I'm not saying that I don't get worried. I'm human. And faaar from perfect. But I have Faith. I know that God has me under his wing. That he has my life and the life of my husband and my son under control. He doesn't need me. All he needs me to do is trust and have Faith in him. He tells us to "cast all our anxieties on him because he cares for us." [1 Peter 5:7] Don't think that God doesn't care. He does. He tells us so. I mean, he did send his only son to this filthy, disgusting Earth to be sacrificed and nailed to a cross. Next time you get upset or start freaking out over something, be it big or small, just take a second to stop and remember that God's got you. All you need to do it trust him.

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September 29, 2009

Body After Baby...How Ironic

MamaNotes
How ironic is it that after my last post, I would run across this online? Haha. God certainly has a sense of humor and a knack for getting my butt into gear. The goal here is to provide Mom's with a sort of accountability group to encourage us to get ourselves back into shape and feeling good about ourselves. The challenge lasts 8 weeks, and this is Week One. I don't know about you, but I know I certainly feel better about myself when my clothes fit loose and I am burning calories during the day. There are mini-challenges each week, followed by a giveaway for those who link up to the site and post about their progress.

This weeks mini-challenge: How many glasses of water can you drink in a week?

For each glass {or for me, bottle because I don't drink water from the tap}, you get one point. Next Tuesday, you post about your progress and tally up your points. This is a big one for me. If I can cut out all of the CAFFEINE that I drink I can cut some pounds quick. So. The 2 liter Dr. Pepper that is in my fridge...that's got to be my LAST. I'm going to need to hubster to help me with that one and not let me buy anymore. Sigh. Oh how I will miss thee, Dr. Pepper. LOL Anywho.

Here are my starting Stats [I'm not brave enough to show you guys pictures, so you'll just have to deal with this]:
Weight: 133 lbs. *Yes, I know that's not a lot, but it's more than I weighed when Noah was born and I want it GONE! Not to mention, most of my problem is getting back in shape.*
Inches: Never been really sure how to measure this, but over my "baby pooch" is 31 inches. Yuck.
GOAL: 125 pounds & ATLEAST 27 inches. [Back to where I was pre-Noah. Weight isn't a huge factor for me because I want to tone up and muscle weighs more than fat. So, as long as I lose the inches, I will be satisfied.]

Head on over Mama Notes to join the challenge. Good luck :)

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Missing My Mojo

The past couple of weeks have been...interesting. For lack of a better word. Since the sleepover at the church I have felt D.E.A.D.

It used not to be a big deal. Staying up late-or all night. [If you've read my testimony, you know that in college I used to do it all the time.] But that long night seriously kicked my butt. Not that I minded, or regret going. The farthest from it. But I think that night just reminded me that despite the fact that numerically I really am 22 years old (yes, only 22 for those of you who thought different), I am physically and I guess mentally a lot older than that. The only thing that says that I'm 22 is my drivers license. 'Cause believe me, I don't feel it.

Have you ever heard people say that having a baby ages you 10 years? Yeah. They weren't lying. I feel like I'm 32. I wake up achy and sore, having only lifted a 22 pound toddler up and down all day long. I am in bed...deeply asleep-most nights by 9:00 [10:00 on Thursday's when Grey's comes on], and I have random and sporadic back and joint pains all during the day. LOL Not to mention, since having Noah my eyes have started to go. I've got to go have them checked and I know that I'm going to need glasses.

Plus, on top of all of this I feel like I have lost my "mojo." My drive. My ambition. My stamina to do anything. Where the heck did it go? Did I deliver it when I delivered Noah and they wrapped it up and threw it away? Because I can't seem to find it. Even on the days that I clean the house, catch up my blog, do laundry, cook supper, keep Noah entertained and happy, I feel like by the time the afternoon roles around I have done nothing for myself. I feel like I-Courtney Kirkland-no longer exists. Rather "I" have been replaced by "Mommy, Wife & Homemaker." Blah.

Don't get my wrong. There is absolutely nothing that I enjoy more than being at home with Noah, watching him grow and develop and knowing that I am largely responsible for his growth. I love being able to take care of my husband and have things prepared for him when he gets home in the afternoons and knowing that I have at least contributed something. But, still. I'm at a loss as to who I am anymore. I need a project or something to keep me busy. Something to feel like I can be proud of. Something that I have to work for. Something that has something to show for it. You wonder why I change my blog so often? Because it's something to do! Something I can show for my time at home all. day. long.

I have thought about getting a job, but that's kind of pointless because I will be working just to pay child care. I don't like the idea of having to pay someone else to raise my son and not having anything to show for it. They passed the Post-9/11 GI Bill which says that I will be able to use Josh's GI Bill to pay for school, so I am really excited about that. Like, unbelievably excited. I'll have to take class at night, but whatever. I can't wait to get back in school and actually be DOING something.

As far as my plan to get my "mojo" back...
1. Start a project. -I'm going to get all of this FPU budgeting done and set up a really nice, organized Financial Notebook. Especially now that I have some really good forms to use. I do better with actual paper than on the computer, so I'll have to make some copies, get a binder, some tab dividers...

2. Start getting back in shape.- This is a biggy. I lost all but 5 pounds of my post-baby weight with Noah. I just never did get myself back in SHAPE. This starts tonight...our church does a free workout class every Tuesday. It's time to stop making excuses and GO! Then, I'll start taking Noah to the park every afternoon and walking. I need to find some way to start jogging a few days a week. That's hard to do because we don't have a jogging stroller and Josh likes to run when he goes to the park...hmm. I'll have to think about that one. And finally, drag out my Pilate's stuff and USE IT. I started doing this right after Noah was born and started seeing some results pretty quick. Then when we moved it got shoved in the attic (?) and I haven't gotten it down.

3. Get Spiritually Fit.- This is something that I am going to HAVE to do better on. Got to. I've been slacking. My big problem is that I am SO TIRED when I wake up that I don't get up and do my Bible Study and Quiet time first thing. So it usually get pushed back, and pushed back, and pushed back until the end of the day and then I rush through it just to get it done. Not good. I've got to make that the highest priority on my list. Everyday. All day.

So there. My "missing mojo" plan of action. Haha. I'm excited. I have a plan. Now all I have to do it implement it. I should probably start by doing something with the 17 or 18 FunFetti cupcakes I baked last night. Those are a real help to my "get fit" plan. LOL. We shall see. I will keep you updated. Wish me luck and encouraging thoughts. I'm going to need them.

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September 28, 2009

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today, September 28, 2009:

Outside my window...The sun is shining, blue skies, a few clouds. And it's warm...oh how I wish Florida knew what Fall was.

From the Kitchen...Pancakes and Grits...maybe some eggs.

I am thinking...that I wish this headache that I have had for the past day and a half would GO AWAY!!!

I am thankful...for God's will being revealed to Josh the past few days. So excited for all that is to come!

I am praying...for patience, God's guidance and his discipline.

A few plans for this week...Mom's Linc tomorrow morning then maybe a playdate afterwards. Bill paying and Grocery shopping Wednesday morning, our FPU class on Wednesday night followed by the traditional fellowship at Chick-Fil-A after, and nothing on the schedule after that.

Not much to my daybook today. Not a whole lot going on. Got the house cleaned today so not much left to do other than catch up on my bible studies. I am lagging behind. Got to get on the ball.

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September 24, 2009

My friend Amie has ignited this little "mommy spark" inside of me the past couple of weeks that is causing my brain to float around a very strange idea. She has this beauitful little girl, Avery, who is always dressed in her adorable little outfits and dresses with the cute bows and ribbons in her hair. And then there is the pink. And the pretty green. And red [maybe not everyone uses red, but I plan to...hopefully.] My mind has gone to baby mush...this is what I spend time looking at online...

We just aren't at the point where we can have another baby right now. And to be honest, I didn't know that I would even want one after my pregnancy with Noah. I had a looong pregnancy with a lot of aches and pains [both physical and emotional] that I am scared to death to relive. The physical I can handle. But there are still scars from the emotional experiences I went through that I am petrified to encounter again. I worry too, about how I could handle being pregnant with a child. I mean, I know women do it all the time, but I've always wondered how? Especially since I know how TIRED I was the WHOLE time I was pregnant with Noah. I don't know when I would sleep. LOL

Plus we have to look at timing too. With Josh being military and considering a career in the medical field [hence considering...it's what he wants to do, but he's at a crossroads where he doesn't know if that's what God wants. If you guys will, just please remember him in your prayers. It's really stressing him out.] it's hard to even think about another baby. I don't want to bring another child into the picture if Josh is going to be a Doctor...there isn't enough time. For him. Not for me. I've always wanted kids. Atleast 2. I've always wanted to be the soccer, PTA, & Field trip mom. I want to get my degree in English and write professionally when the kid(s) go to school. That way I can work from home and be able to make my own schedule. But with Josh, he has a gift and a passion for the medical field. And I know how involved he gets in his work. And it scares me to death to think of bringing another baby into the picture when he won't have the time that he wants to give them.

Anywho. Just some thoughts for today. I already have a name picked out, by the way. :) Since Noah's name ends in "-AH" and his is all biblical and has significant meaning, I want our other kids names to mean something to. So, if I ever have a little girl her name will be : Rebekah Elizabeth. We will call her "Bekah" and the "Elizabeth" is tradition. My grandmother's middle name was Elizabeth, and so was her grandmothers. And so is mine. And both of those are in the bible. Anyway. Someday. Hopefully. :)

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50 Questions

This little baby is floating around the blogosphere and I have seen it on several different blogs. Therefore, I can't really give credit as to where it originated. LOL But, no matter, here are my answers :)

1. Where were you three hours ago? Making Josh's lunch before he left to go to work
2. Who are you in love with? Josh & My Jesus...although I don't really love them both the way that God says we should. Working on it though ;)
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon? I can remember back to about the age of...6 and I don't remember ever eating one. But before then, you'd have to ask my mom.
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Yep. There's a pink pen on the floor next to me.
5. When was the last time you went to the mall? Hmm...I don't really remember. Whenever my mom and sister were here we went, but I don't remember before then.
6. Are you wearing socks right now? Nope.
7. Do you have a car worth over $2000? Yes
8. When was the last time you drove out of town? In July when my Paw Paw died.
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? Nope.
10. Are you hot? Not right now. But that comes and goes. LOL
11. What was the last thing you had to drink? Dr. Pepper
12. What are you wearing right now? A T-Shirt and a pair of shorts
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it? We wash it...usually at the car wash thing
14. Last food you ate? A pack of cheese crackers.
15. Where were you last week at this time? At home, I think.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Nope. I haven't gotten any new clothes in a while. LOL
17. When was the last time you ran? LOL does running from the playground to the car count? I did that last week.
18. What was the last sporting event you watched? I pretended to watched some of the Rays Game last night while I was eating supper.
19. Your favorite animal? Puppies
20. Your dream vacation? Hawaii or Jamaica or the Caribbean...pretty much anywhere tropical for 6 or 7 days, with Josh where I can sleep late in a hammock on the deck of a beautiful Island House, soak up some sunshine, get massages, read...ah. How nice that would be.
21. Last person’s house you were in? Mine
22. Worst injury you ever had? I messed up my knee playing softball years ago and it still gives me fits
23. Have you been in love? Yep. And I fall more and more in love with my wonderful Husband every day. :)
24. Do you miss anyone right now? My Grandparents, My parents [wish they lived closer], and my husband [wish he didn't work all the time]
25. Last play you saw? James & The Giant Peach. Saw it with my Drama class my Sophomore Year of College. Pretty Good play. Very imaginative what they did with such a small stage.
26. What is your secret weapon to lure the opposite sex? I don't know. I think Josh would have said it was my innocence and sweetness that I caught him with. He said it made him wonder what I was all about. Guess it worked :)
27. What are your plans for tonight? Cleaning up [most likely when Josh gets off so that he can watch Noah for about an hour], catching up on my Bible Study, maybe Basketball at church, cooking supper and GREY'S ANATOMY @ 9:00!!!!
28. Who is the last person to send you a Facebook message or comment? Hmmm....our Youth Pastor Sheldon commented on my status when my computer crashed yesterday.
29. Next trip you are going to take? Going home to Alabama in November
30. Ever go camping? Once, when was like 12.
31. Were you an honor student in school? Yep. I was a big geek. ;)
32. What do you want to know about the future? I don't really care to know anything about the future. That takes the fun out of things and makes you anticipate the negative. I'm happy with learning what I can and living like I should every day and enjoying it with my family.
33. Are you wearing perfume or cologne? Not right now, but I usually do when I go somewhere. Speaking of, I'm almost out. [Hint Hint Hubby! :)]
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor’s visit? Yep. Sometime in December...not excited. I hate the doctor.
35. Where is your best friend? He is at work
36. How is your best friend? He's tired. He's working alot and needs a good vacation.
37. Do you have a tan? A little bit. I need to work on it some more, but since it's "Fall" and eventually I will start wearing jeans all the time, it's no big deal.
38. What are you listening to right now? The TV
39. Do you collect anything? Books, picture frames, I call myself collecting "Gone with the Wind" memorabillia, but I haven't bought anything in a long time.
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know? My neighbor. She says that she isn't, but she gossips all the time. And my sister. LOL But she's only 17 so what do you expect? :)
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over? I've only ever been pulled over once [knock on wood] the weekend before our wedding I was leaving Dothan going to Josh's cousins rehersal dinner and I got pulled over for speeding. Almost 80 in a 45...I didn't get a ticket though. :)
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw? Well, yea. All the time when I had braces.
43. What does your last text message say? "That's really funny..." in response to my sister
44. Do you like hot sauce? Nope
45. Last time you took a shower? Last night.
46. Do you need to do laundry? When do I not? lol
47. What is your heritage? No clue.
48. Are you someone’s best friend? I hope so
49. Are you rich? LOL Only in Jesus :) And in love.
50. What were you doing at 12 AM last night? Sleeping

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September 23, 2009

Uh-Oh

I am getting bored. Again. With my lovely blog that I put so much work into. I feel like it is in need of a makeover. But, I'm not sure what I want to do with it. I feel like my sidebars are cluttered and that I need to revamp some of the layout. Move some things around. Soo...today. I think. Maybe, I will get around to that. Maybe not getting it up and running, but researching some ideas and what-not. If any of you lovely blog designers out there want free reign to design as YOU PLEASE...contact me. I'm willing to allow you to design away :)

Also. I have seen a growing number of blogs popping up online lately that are solely devoted to a persons [more or less a woman's] walk with Christ. Would anyone be interested in reading about mine on a seperate page? It would be more personal than this one and a lot more specific than what you read here. Just some thoughts. Would love to hear from you. :)

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September 21, 2009

Sleepover Pics!

I went to my first Youth Group Event on Friday Night. They had a sleepover for the girls at the church and I actually got to give the devotion and share my testimony. It started at 7:00 with Taco's [yummy!] and fellowship. We baked cookies [well, some of them baked cookies, the rest of us ate the dough by the spoonful], and the girls got to decorate cakes. They knew it was a contest, but they didn't know exactly what for. They had to decorate them, thinking that the winner would be chosen based on the best looking cake. Surprise, Surprise! The winner was chosen based on which group could eat their decorated cake, the fastest...without any utensils. It was hilarious! Some of the teams got a little icing and sprinkle happy while decorating and regretted it when it got time to actually eat the cake.

We decided to play "Man Hunt" in the pitch black of the church...it was insanely creepy. But it was lots of fun. Lots of screaming, lots of bruises from bumping into stuff in the dark, but worth it. I managed to make it till 4:30 am, and then I crashed. The girls had to be gone at 7:00, so I only managed to get about 2 hours of sleep or so. Luckily for me, Josh let Noah stay up crazy-late Friday night, so he ended up napping about 4 hours or so when I got home, which meant that me & Josh both got to nap too. Here are a few pictures for you...most of them were taken in the dark, which is why we look demonic with our red eyes. Haha!

I missed Tiffany's Memo to make a scary face...

Amie, Me & Tiffany...we were the "big kids" of the group.

Pausing in the hallway to take a picture in the dark. Surprisingly enough we all managed to keep our eyes open!

Funny Faces! :)

:) Good times...

Amie let me give the Devotion and share my Testimony. I was unbelievably nervous, but it turned out really well. I didn't start until 1:00 am, and actually managed to keep most of the girls awake! I had one girl com up to me when I finished and told me how grateful she was that I shared my story with then. She said that I had inspired her and encouraged her not to become involved in the things that I had gotten tangled up in in my life. I almost cried. It was the first time I had ever shared my story with girls that weren't my peers and I was extremely humbled by her kind words. That alone was enough to make me want to continue sharing what I learned and have overcome. Thanks to all of you whose thoughts and prayers were with me. I am so very much appreciative!

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The Simple Woman's Daybook-9/21/09

For Today, September 21, 2009...

Outside my window...absolutely beautiful! Sunshine and blue skies. Too bad it's still in the mid-90's...

I am Thankful for...my family. My new friends. My church. I'm completely happy with life right now.

From the Kitchen...I have no clue. Maybe Panini's...

I am Creating...not much of anything right now.

I am Reading..."Lies Women Believe" and doing the study on "A Woman After God's own Heart". I'm really enjoying both, but the "Lies" book isn't all that I expected it to be. So far, I'm a little disappointed with it.

I am Hoping...that God's will and timing is revealed to us soon.

Around the House...things are pretty tidy around the house today. My wonderful hubby cleaned my house for me last Wednesday and it's still pretty clean. Noah's room is a disaster right now, but nothing that I can't get picked up in just a few minutes. Toys and stuff...

A Few Plans for the Rest of the week...Mom's Linc tomorrow morning and Workout tomorrow night, FPU Class Wednesday Night, GREY'S ANATOMY Premier Thursday Night, and nothing else for the weekend, except church on Sunday.

I am Praying...for God's timing and his will to be revealed. I'm also praying for Patience in waiting for it...

Find other Daybookers here.

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September 18, 2009

My mind right now...

*I am giving my testimony/giving a lesson on Individuality at our church's Youth Girls Slumber Party...I am extremely nervous. I can't figure out why. I mean, I am giving MY testimony on things that happened to ME, so it's not like I have to come up with something. I think it's because this is really the first time that I have ever given my testimony in front of people I don't know. I want my testimony to make a difference. I don't want it to just be something else these girls here and then forget. I'm hoping that God gives me to words to make an impact. We are dividing into groups and decorating cakes, then I get to give my testimony and tie it into how everyone is different, but we all share one common bond: Christ. I planned a neat little activity, so we will see how it goes.

*God is so good!! I was upset last week because Josh was working ALL the time, but God has been so good to us this week. Josh was supposed to work Monday-Thursday with the Coast Guard this week, then work 12 hour shifts today and tomorrow at the hospital. He ended up getting off work at 2:00 on Monday, and got off early Tuesday because he was getting sick, stayed home Wednesday, and worked yesterday and today, but is off tomorrow. I miss him when he's gone. And I know that Noah does too. It's not easy having him gone so much. But I have so much respect for him as a wife for taking the steps needed to take care of us and get us out of this financial rut that we are in.

* Speaking of Finances, we started Dave Ramsey's "Financial Peace University" Wednesday night at church and I. LOVE. IT. It's common sense, real world advice tied together with God's word and his hilarious true sense of humor. Our first "baby step" is to put $1000.00 in Emergency Funding. Josh's second job is really going to help us out with our saving. We don't have a lot of debt. My car and very minimal student loans. We don't have a pile of credit cards, so we don't have that to deal with. Our biggest thing is managing our money and cutting out crap that we don't need. I'm excited to start saving and get over the sense of "impending doom" I feel sometimes because we don't have ANY savings. We just haven't been able to afford it. Not anymore. This is hardcore. And we have an accountability group to help us out, so it's really exciting.

* Noah is almost ONE YEAR OLD!!! I can't believe it. Seriously. Can't believe it. Where has this past year gone??? We are having a party here for him, and then going home and having one in Alabama so our family can come. It's going to be fun. Don't worry. You will get to see photos. I gaurantee it.

* There is a townhouse identical to ours for rent across the street from us. My new friend Amie came over the other day and fell in love with the layout of our house. She's wanting to persuade her husband, Sheldon [who is the Youth Minister] at our church, to move over there. I am already brainstorming how awesome it would be to have a friend living across the street from me :) They are looking to move anyway, and I'm hoping that things are going to work out so that we can be neighbors.

* I feel bad for falling back on my blog. I am up to 36 followers and I feel like I have let you guys down lately. I'm going to try to sit down on Sunday nights and schedule some posts throughout the week so that you guys have some stuff to read. I just haven't taken the time lately to do it. Sorry :(

That's about all that I can think of right now. I've got to finish gathering what little stuff I am taking to the slumber party tonight. I do have to get the stuff together for my little activity. Wish me luck everyone! I'll let you know how it goes. So excited!

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September 14, 2009

Fabulous Fall Shows!

Amber over at {aefilkins} is as it again this week, this time asking what our Favorite Fall TV Shows are. I'll admit, there aren't many shows that I really get into. I just don't have time to watch TV that much. However, there is one that I will clear my schedule for week after week just to watch what happens! Which one, you ask? The only one....

I. Am. Addicted. An addiction that I managed to get the husband involved in as well. When he was stuck in bed recovering from Hernia Surgery, he and I watched EVERY season [I have them all on DVD]. He loves it. He's a medical guru, so of course.

I'm anticipating this season. I know there is a lot of speculation as to how they are going to bring Izzie Stevens back because she died last season...very simple, folks. It's called "coding" and within a certain amount of time and with the right meds and a crash cart, doctors can work miracles [as long as the Good Lord allows it, of course]. It's not far-fetched, as I know alot of people seem to think. Very possible, very plausible, very realistic. George on the other hand, won't be returning for those of you who didn't know. Something about contract problems or trouble with the writers...anywho. Didn't mean to go on this whole spill.

Grey's Anatomy. Yea. I love it.

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September 11, 2009

Thanking God on Friday's

~ I am thankful for...Josh's second job. Despite not having him at home a whole lot, I know that this time in our lives won't last. And with the economy the way that it is now, I am thankful that he was able to get this job when there are so many others out there who can't even find one.

~I am thankful for...our new church home. God is so good! Having found a new place to call "home" has given us the spiritual push that we needed to really go all out for Christ each and every day. God is also showing me things he wants for me and how to get there. He has provided alot of the tools, now it's just up to us to decide what to do with them.

~I am thankful for...new friendships. I didn't realize how much I was missing by not really having a strong support system of friends around me. Being military makes it hard to make friends...especially when all you do everyday is take care of a baby. I'm not taking class right now and don't have a whole lot of resources to pull friends from. Being in church, I've already met some wonderful new friends and I am so excited to see God grow these relationships.

~I am thankful for...Mickey Mouse, Handy Manny, Tigger & Pooh, Agent Oso and Apple Juice. All of the little things that keep Noah Quiet and occupied in the mornings when I have things that I need to do. Criticize me if you want, yes I let my not-even-11 month old watch cartoons. It keeps him still and entertained while I fold a load of clothes or eat breakfast. And those of you that don't, good for you. Glad to see you have more sanity and patience than I do.

~I am thankful for...the opportunity to stay at home with my son. I know alot of moms that wish they could be home with their children and I am so happy that God has allowed me to do this. I get frustrated and I get bored, but it's worth each and every single moment that I have with him. Even when the days are long and the job goes thankless and unappreciated. I know that I am accomplishing something.

What are you thankful for today?

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I'm still here.

I've been a bad blogger the past 2 weeks or so. I haven't really written anything at all. And those of you that have followed for awhile know that I'm not one to just take a bloggy vacay. I enjoy blogging too much.

The past 2 weeks have been BUSY. We found our new church home and have been going and doing stuff with our new church friends almost every night. I have a Bible Study class on Tuesdays, church on Wednesday Nights [where we usually go out to Chik-Fil-A afterwards to fellowship], The guys play basketball on Thursdays, and then church on Sunday's at 9:30-12:00 and then again at 6:00. I'm loving it though. I love being busy and having stuff to do.

Josh started his new job last week. I'm not really as overjoyed about that as I figured I would be. Not overjoyed that he's working, but happy because he has a second job and we are almost out of the financial rut we have been in for several months. But I'm not enjoying the hours that he is working right now. He worked Monday-Thursday last week with the Coast Guard until 4:00 atleast, then worked 12 hour shifts on Friday and Saturday. It's just not as easy as I thought it would be...having him gone so much, that is. He's got duty with the CG this week, which always means longer days. It was 6:00 before he got home last night, and he had to work today [which he is usually off on Friday's] and all weekend. It's just not easy to have him not around. Noah doesn't like it either. Even though he is only 10 1/2 months, he knows when his daddy is supposed to be home and when he's not, Noah gets ill and fussy and just wants his daddy at home.

Oh well. God doesn't test us beyond what we can handle right? I know that all of this is to teach me [and Josh] something. Maybe, how important family is? That Josh really doesn't want to ever have a job that requires so much of his time away from home? It's just had me in a bad mood. Weird right? That something so seemingly insignificant to most people could keep me in an ill mood...oh well. I love my husband. Noah loves his Daddy, and we want him home with us when we can get him.

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September 8, 2009

Just a mom?

I found this is the "Gulf Coast Community" Newspaper that they give away at church. I thought it was really cute and so true, so I thought I would share it with you all. Enjoy!

A woman, renewing her drivers license at the County Clerks office, was asked by the woman recorder to state her occupation.

She hesitated, uncertain how to clasify herself.

"What I mean, is..." the recorder explained, "do you have a job or are you just a...?"

"Of course I have a job," snapped the woman. "I'm a mom."

"We don't list 'Mom' as an occupation, 'housewife' covers it," said the recorder emphatically.

I forgot all about her story until one day I found myself in the same situation, this time at our Town Hall. The Clerk was obviously a career woman, poised, efficient, and posessed of a high sounding title like "Official Interrogator" or "Town Registrar."

"What is your occupation?" se probed.

What made me say it? I do not know. The words simply popped out. "I'm a Research Associate in the field of Child Developement and Human Relations."

The clerk paused, ball point pen frozen in midair and looked up as though she had not heard right.

I repeated the title slowly emphasizing the most significant words. Then I stared with wonder as my pronouncement was written in bold, black ink on the official questionnaire.

"Might I ask," said the clerk with new interest, "just what you do in your field?"

Coolly, without any trace of fluster in my voice, I heard myself reply, "I have a continuing program of research [what mother doesn't] in the laboratory and in the field, [normally I would have said indoors and out].

I'm working on my Master [first the Lord and then the whole family] and already have four credits [all daughters]. Of course, the job is one of the most demanding in the humanities, [any mother care to disagree?] and I often work 14 hours a day [24 is more like it]. But the job is more challenging than most run-of-the-mill careers and rewards are more of a satisfaction rather than just money."

There was an increasing note of respect in the clerk's voice as she completed the form, stood up, and personally escorted me to the door.

As I drove into our driveway, buoyed up by my glamorous new career, I was greeted by my lab assistants-ages 13, 7 and 3. Upstairs I could hear our new experimental model [my 6 month old baby] in the child developement program, testing out a new vocal pattern.

I felt I had scored a beat on bureaucracy! And I had gone on the official records as someone more distinguished and indespensable to mankind than "just another Mom." Motherhood! What a glorious career!

Hope you all have a Happy Tuesday! Enjoy your day of 'research and developement!'

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September 7, 2009

The Simple Woman's Daybook- 9/7/09

For Today, September 7, 2009...

Outside my Window...sunny, with just a few clouds. It was really warm today. Not at all like the Fall weather I am hoping comes early to us Floridians this year.

I am Thinking...about a few different things, actually. Ready for my Mom's Linc Class tomorrow.

I am Thankful...for our new church home [We officially joined yesterday morning] and for all of the new friends that we are making.

From the Kitchen...just cooked Panini's. This is one of the first items on my menu plan this week that I have actually cooked. We've been doing a lot of running this week and I haven't had to cook but twice. (Yay!)

I am Reading..."A Woman After God's own Heart" by Elizabeth George, and I get my copy of "Lies Women Believe" tomorrow. SUPER excited!

I am praying...For God's will and guidance in so many different areas of my life. I am praying that God would continue to stengthen my prayer life and teaching me how to continue to grow spiritually.

Around the house...clean for the most part. Except for our bedroom which looks like Hurricane Noah hit at Category 5 wind speed. I'll get around to cleaning, probably on Wednesday. Linc tomorrow until lunch so I probably won't get around to it.

One of my favorite things...Noah's attempts at walking. He hasn't really let himself go yet to take a real step, but he's debating it. You can tell he REALLY wants to, but he is still a little too unsure to try.

A few plans for the rest of the week...Linc tomorrow morning then possibly Workout at the church tomorrow night. Wednesday, clean the house & Bible Study at 7:00. No plans for Thursday unless Josh goes to play basketball Thursday night. Pending Library story time on Friday and coffee with a girlfriend. Nothing for Saturday [yet] and then church Sunday morning and Sunday night. I need to go get my eyes checked at some point this week...I'm going blind. LOL

Share your daybook here.

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All Things Fall :)

Can I just say how excited I am that this wonderful little meme is up and running? This is one of my favorites and I am always so excited about starting my "blogging" week off with Friend Makin' Monday. This week Amber is asking "What are Your Favorite Things About Fall?" I can honestly say that Fall is my absolute favorite time of year. I love the way fall smells, I love the way it feels...but to be more specific, here are a few of the best things about fall :)

I adore coffee. I drink it during the summer time usually to kick of my mornings, but during the fall [and the winter, but we are talking about winter here] I am likely to drink it 2 or 3 times a day. I love to sit outside (now that I have a beautiful patio overlooking the water) and sip coffee while a cool breeze is blowing. There is just something about crisp air that makes coffee taste that much better.

College Football. There is nothing in the world that SCREAMS Fall like the good ol' SEC conference. There is no better way to spend a Saturday than crowded around the TV watching the Crimson Tide or the Auburn Tigers play some ball. And there is NO other conference besides the SEC. Period. [Sorry Kelli...the big Ten hasn't got anything on the SEC :) ]

Leaves. I love the colors of the Leaves. Warm colors are my favorite and I love seeing the leaves change colors. It's one of God's little tricks that makes me smile every year.

I am super excited about the new "Twilight" movie coming out in November. I love these books and the movies are just as good. I'm a "Team Edward" junkie. :)

I am also really excited about Noah's first REAL Halloween. I'm already working on his costume and I'm soooo excited to see what he's gonna look like in it. I'm not giving anything away yet. I'm making you all wait to see pictures when I get it finished.

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September 3, 2009

Letter of Frustration

Dear ,

Maybe this is partly our fault...seeing as how we try to be polite and include everyone, and don't like anyone to feel left out. We have a son, just as you have your own children, and I am a stay-at-home mom...just like you are. We live off of one salary, too. So when we invite you over to have dinner with us, be courteous enough to bring something. Even if I do not ask you.

Don't complain and vent about money and how pitiful and broke you are and then turn around and go out to eat 2 or 3 times a week with a group of your friends. Especially not after I have cooked for you several [and by several I mean 5 or 6] times and you've only invited us over once. We were trying to be polite and be friendly, but I don't appreciate feeling like I am being used. And that's the way it's coming off.

Signed,
Your Aggravated Hostess

I'm not a rude person. Not at all. I like for people to feel included. I know how hard it is to go to a new place and feel left out and not have any friends. I know how hard it is to be in a new church, and not know anyone. To be at a new school, and not have anywhere to belong. So, when I see people that I don't know, I like to make them feel welcome. {What can I say? I'm a southern girl and hospitality is in my blood.} But I get really ill when I feel used. Said people have complained and complained and complained about how broke they are, so me being the overly nice person that I am, almost felt bad for them. I know how crappy the economy is and how hard it is on one paycheck. So, even though we are not living in a mansion and have to budget our money, I tried to be nice and play hostess to said people.

When I go somewhere, I always bring something. It's just courtesy. Even if they say they don't need anything. I don't go to people's house and expect them to feed me and then me leave. [Is that just something we do in the South?] And when we are done eating, I atleast offer to help clean up. And don't vent to me and cry about how broke you are and then spend Lord knows how much money going out to eat with a bunch of your friends, and going to this and going to that. It's your money and you can spend it the way that you want., but....if you are so broke, FEED YOURSELF and STOP expecting me to cook for you for FREE!

Am I over-reacting? I don't really think I am. I'm pretty sure that I won't let that happen to me again. I don't mind playing hostess, but seriously. This situation was one sided and ridiculous. Oh well...moving on.

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Some Notes on Prayer

I've gotten some good responses to my posts about Bible Study & Prayer and some requests to keep the notes and ideas coming, so here are a few from my Bible Study class on Sunday, and some things I have found on my own over the past couple of days. [In case you are looking for a good study on enhancing your prayer life, I recommend "A Woman After God's Own Heart" by Elizabeth George & any of the "Power of Praying" books by Stormie Omartian]

*10 Ways to Improve Your Prayer Life:

1. Use a prayer list or notebook where you can keep track of all of the requests you get.
2. Schedule a prayer time everyday...if you make an appointment with God, you can be assured that he will show up.
3. Spend time praying with others.
4. Pray using Scripture [this is something that I am learning how to do, and I'm really excited about it.]
5. Borrow from the prayers of others [there are a lot of Good prayers that you can google on the internet]
6. Open and close each day with prayer [You will be amazed at how much smoother your day will go and how much better you will sleep if you do this].
7. Gain inspiration from the biographies of others who have prayed.
8. Study and reflect on the prayers in the Bible. [I love reading the Psalm's.]
9. Follow through on your resolve- No decision made without prayer.
10. Feed your heart and mind DAILY with God's word.

~Prayer does not change God, but it changes him who prays.

~Don't give God instructions, just report for duty.

~The task ahead of us is never as great as the POWER behind us.

~If the church wants a better pastor, it only needs to pray for the one it already has.

~7 Days without prayer= 1 Weak

~If your day is hemmed in with prayer, it is less likely to become unraveled.

~"Prayer will make a man cease from sin, or sin will entice a man to cease from prayer." -Oswald Chambers

~"The word of God is the food by which prayer is nourished and made strong." -E.M. Bounds

~"God has editing rights over our prayers. He will...edit them, correct them, bring them in line with HIS will and then hand them back to us to be resubmitted." -Stephen Crotts.

Hope you enjoyed these. I'm sure I will have some more of these soon. There are tons in my Study Book. I love Quotes and things that inspire me. I keep an entire Notebook full of them.

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September 2, 2009

"Splash!"

My friend Kate has given me this awesome award! I love her blog. It's so cute and always full of different and interesting posts. I love blogs that are always full of surprises! Not the same ol' things over and over again. As with most awards, there are a few rules that I am more than happy to oblige by. Here goes:

The "Splash Award" is given to alluring, amusing, inspiring, bewitching, and impressive blogs. [And you wonder why I get speechless when people pass these to me.]

When receiving this award you must:
1) Put the logo on your blog/post.
2) Nominate up to 9 other deserving blogs.
3) Let your nominees know they have been chosen by commenting on their blog.
4) Link back to the person who gave it to you.

So, for this award, I am nominating:

Angie, MamaKat, and Tina. I know it says I can nominate up to 9, but I only nominated a few so there would be someone for these winners to nominate if they want to. Thanks again Kate for this award!

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Complete Randomness

I don't really have any one particular topic to write about today, but there are a few things on my mind. So, as in true tradition [and obsessive habit] I thought I would make you a nice little list of some things on my mind.

I am so excited about the new Bible Studies I am participating in. Really. Like, ecstatic. We are studying "A Woman After God's own Heart" on Sunday Nights and "Lies Women Believe" on Tuesday mornings. Both of these courses have workbooks-which are my favorite. I love having somewhere to write out my thoughts and all on a Lesson. Plus, it gives me a real agenda when I do my Quiet Times in the morning.

Our Mom's Linc class is spending some quality time this year focusing on Bible Study. This is going to really help me in my own walk. I feel sometimes like I don't always get anything out of the Bible when I read it. That's part of the reason I like books. I study better and learn more when I have something to guide me. Ms. Joan [our mom "mentor"] is going to be teaching us how to study and how to really dig into God's word on our own. I'll keep you posted. :)

Josh and I really love our new church. We are planning to officially join on Sunday. Josh would have done it on Sunday, but he wasn't in his "Sunday Best" and wants to be dressed up when we join. There is a lot going on there and Josh and I are most likely going to be able to get involved and help out with the Youth Group [something we are both passionate about]. They are doing a class on Dave Ramsey's "Financial Peace University" on Wednesdays that we are going to take, and they play Basketball on Thursday nights. Since I am at home almost all day, every single day, I am excited about the opportunity to join the human race outside of the confines of my home.

I have been starting my day off with some Quiet Time and Prayer everyday this week. And I'll just tell you, since I've started doing that, I have noticed some very obvious changes in the way that my days have gone. I was accustomed to feeling completely overwhelmed by all that I needed to get done. Since I started out putting God first in the mornings, I have managed to get almost everything done. Monday was the first day that I started and it went FABULOUSLY! I got my Quiet Time in, my prayer time in, the menu plan made, the groceries bought [and put away of course], the house straightened up, blogs wrote, the bills paid & the laundry done. I felt extremely accomplished. God is showing me that if I turn to him first, he will bless me [and that goes for every aspect of my life].

Monkey Man is really growing up. He pushed himself to a standing position this morning for the first time. He didn't pull up or anything. Just pushed up and stood. Naturally, he plopped back down on his rear end within 10 seconds, but still. That's another step closer to walking [and me never, ever getting to slow down.] His birthday is coming up really soon. We are going home to Alabama the first week of November. That way Noah can trick-or-treat down here with the church and stuff. I picked out his costume. So excited! I'll have to wait and show you guys pictures when I get it. It's a little something I came up with on my own. It's going to be really, really cute.

I've been on the organization kick the past few days. I still haven't completely figured out how I want to do my Prayer Journal **Which means, I'm still in need of ideas for anyone who keeps one themselves.** And I have created a binder with all of my Bible Study tools in it. [I'm going to post pictures, so just stay posted.] I'm really excited about this. Everything is right there together and I don't have to turn to 100 different books, notebooks, and folders to keep it all together. I can thank Tammie from Mom's Linc for the inspiration, because that's where that idea came from.

Okay. I guess that is all for now. Time to kick off the morning...despite the fact that it's ridiculously dreary and gloomy and all I want to do is sit in bed and watch TV. I have 3 loads of laundry that need finishing. -One is on top of the dryer waiting to be folded, one is in the dryer waiting to be folded, and one is in the washer, plus there is another small load that I'll have to do when Josh gets off.- I did have a Question...does anyone know of anywhere that takes Used Bibles? I am getting a new one in a few weeks (this one) and I don't want to just set my other one aside if there is somewhere that would make good use out of it. So if anyone knows somewhere, please let me know.

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September 1, 2009

Depending vs. Dependent

I was reading something the other day [that's italicized because I don't remember what I was reading or where I was reading it at...maybe in a magazine? Or online? Or in a book?] about how married woman (with an emphasis on stay-at-home mothers) are dependent on the husbands. This kind of frustrated me a little bit and I wanted to write about it. There is a big difference in being dependent on your husband and depending on him. Ok. I know that sounds the same, but take a second to go back a re-read that s l o w l y and then think about it.

By saying that someone is dependent on something, you mean they can't do anything without it. Like alcoholics are dependent on their drink of choice. Drug Addicts are dependent of their drug. They don't function without it and they turn to said substance for everything. This woman [or man...again I don't remember the author] was saying that women who don't work for themselves depend on their husbands to do everything for them.

Excuse Me?! As a stay-at-home mother and wife, I took much offense at this comment. There are a lot of things about marriage and the submissive wife role that I agree with, but being totally dependent on my husband is not one. Basically, the author was saying that women who are at home have no kind of integrity, no kind of drive or ambition, no goals for themselves, no nothing. Apparently, they think we ladies sit around all day just waiting for a man to tell us what we need to do because we are so incompetent that we can't function without their command. Puh-lease.

My husband is a hard worker, a devoted father, an excellent husband, and has a heart for God and for others that I admire greatly. But he will be the first one to tell you [or your husband or anyone else] that he could not take on the role that I do. {Now, with that being said, as kudos to him, I could NEVER. EVER. do what he does either.} Despite all of his wonderful qualities and abilities, Josh wasn't meant to be a house daddy. Just wasn't wired that way. No offense to any men that do that, but my husband couldn't. He works to pay the bills. He works to take care of things that we physically need. He has a great role in our home, one that I love him dearly for taking on and do my best to encourage him in. I understand that the weight of our finances rests solely on his shoulders. And he carries that weight like Superman.

BUT. Just because my husband works to pay the bills does not mean that 1) His role is any greater than mine, 2) That I spend my days and nights bowing down to his every whim, and 3) that my life is solely wrapped up in him. Nope. Wrong. I am not dependent on him, but I do in fact DEPEND on him. I depend on him to protect myself and our son. I depend on him to help me carry the groceries in the house. I depend on him to be the Spiritual and Physical Leader of our home. I depend on him to be there for me when I need to vent or need to cry. I depend on him to love me and treat me the way I deserve to be treated. Those are all things that are seperate from me.

I don't get up every single morning and wonder what Josh is going to want me to do or allow me to do. I am my own person and I make my own choices. Now, do I consider the effects my choices will have on my marriage, my husband and my son? Of course. Most decent mothers and wives do. But, no, I am not incappable of functioning without him.

What are your thoughts on this? Stay at home mom or working mom, how do you feel about someone saying that women are dependent of their husbands and basically can't function without them? Sorry. I know I may have been venting a little but things like that really irk me.

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