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September 4, 2008

We're Adults...Scary.

Anyone that watches Grey's Anatomy, recognizes this quote instantaneously. Even though the quote was referring to Meredith's up and down, on again-off again relationship with Derek Shepard...this quote hits home with me and the drastic changes life has taken over the past few months. Where in the world has time gone? It seems like it was just yesterday I was moving into Apartment 309 in Troy with 3 completely insane girls, pledging THE best sorority on the hill (Alpha Gamma Delta for those who don't know which one that is) and getting my feet wet in the real world of responsibility. That was in 2005. It doesn't seem like it's been 3 years since all of that happened.
I look at some of my friends now and how much things have changed for all of us. I don't talk to but 1 or 2 people that I graduated high school with, and hardly keep in touch with the people I was in college with. Old roomies, sorority sisters, people that I had classes with. Aside from browsing around facebook from time to time, I have no idea what's going on with any of them. We've all gone our seperate ways...all living our seperate lives. Most of my friends are married, engaged, or in the last relationship that we know is going to lead to an engagement. My very best friend has a baby, and I have one on the way (9 weeks and counting!)
When did we turn over that leaf of being carefree, college freshman? During my Freshman year of college, my scholarships paid for the actual "school" aspect of things, so the only "bills" I worried about was how I was going to pay my way into the bar or how I was going to afford my drinks for the evening. I didn't have to sleep...I ran off of energy alone. Wake up, Class, Work, Party...get up and do it all over again. 5 or 6 Nights a week. I lived off of Cheese Crackers, Easy Mac, and Hot Pockets...and LOST 15 pounds!
Now there's the cable bill, the electric bill, the rent, the phone bill, insurance, car payments, groceries...it's like we wake up one morning and whether we've realized it or not, the real world is right there in front of us and we have nowhere to go, except forward. Those all nighters that I used to pull? Yea right...not in this lifetime (Of Course, I'm getting prepared for those again with a baby on the way.) I'm in bed by 10:00 on a LATE night...otherwise, it's lights out by 9:00. Haha...I'm getting old. I'm not finished with college yet, and I don't have a "real, grown-up" job, but I have a family, and that's a job all on it's own. Keeping the bills caught up, keeping the house clean, keeping supper on the table and groceries in the fridge...and in the midst of all of this getting ready for a baby and trying to keep my sanity. :)
Don't get me wrong, I don't regret any of the things in my past and don't regret any of the things that have come my way. I love the life that I am living. And despite the ups and downs of the "real world" I love being an adult. There is so much more meaning and purpose in my life. My friendships with people are deeper...we connect over things besides drinking games and frat parties. My relationships (well relationship-singular) are different...I have the love of the only human being that was ever intended for me to be with. I am carrying a miracle with me each and every day. God has seen fit to bless me with a baby...Man. It's such an awesome feeling to know that the Great, Amazing God that created this whole vast universe and has ultimate control and power over everything...sees ME-sinful, imperfect, scatter-brained-ME fit to raise a child. That in itself, is by far the coolest thing ever.
So what do we do now? What do we do now that the play days of high school and college are over, and the real world as ascended onto us like a fog? That's the beauty of it- Whatever We Want! Life is still ours for the taking...it's still up to us to make the most of the time we have been given. I intend to use mine in every way possible.

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